Rellison,
I totally relate to your hope, frustration and human toll incurred. Until 20 days ago, I was there with you. It took me a few tries put level 3 to rest.
Conquering level 3 is akin to a pilgrimage, with plenty of trials and tribulations. The slow burns start in late October and around Thanksgiving. A few hours a week get one back to the familiar rhythms. By the Holiday season passes, it becomes couple of hours a day. Hope makes it a happy time. Adapting a study approach, signing up for a new paid prep program and learning new knowledge stimulate the brain. As March arrives, it is time to steam rolling through chapter end problems. Sure the answer keys use different verbiage, but my answers are close enough. A matter semantics, of course. GF/BF/wife/husband/closed ones are put on noticed about your upcoming absence. Late April is here, so is information overload. The brain draws a blank except on the most recent two or three chapters. Mid of May is a time for panic attack with mock exams behaving like roller coasters. Last two weeks before the big day is a blur, frantic, losing weight, neck pain from sitting too long and quiet protests from those feeling ignored. The ugly realization of possibility of another fail comes out of no where. On the actual exam day, like a prisoner on the death roll too long, it was a surreal sense of relief. The exam is a human robotic reaction under the gun without emotions. The next agonizing 60+ days are full of self doubts, “would, could, should and what ifs” and “f*ck it”. At the end of August, the infamous email arrives, with familiar verbiage of “FAIL”, “sincerely regret to inform” and “encourage you to reconsider registering”. The numb feeling, not much of disappointment, sinks in.
Long winded; yes. I have been there way too many times than I care for. I am glad I am finally out of golden birdcage and feel liberated once more. The celebration is sober, subdued and private. It is not earth shattering or an elated thrill, because multiple fails erase the rights to brag about intelligence and dance after scoring the final touch down. And, here comes my two cents.
Hopefully, my experience will somewhat and somehow support your endeavor.
- Control narcissist tendency: CFA brings lots of knowledge and builds lifelong skillsets, no denial about that. And, it is also yet another exam. The subtile difference metamorphoses into spending too much time and energy on low topic weight yet extremely challenging topics like bond interest options and paying too little attention on lower hanging fruits like CME and equity. The former appeals our narcissist self and makes us feeling smart, and the later involves repetition, hence boring. We think too much about our own perspective, less from a relative scale of others. If a topic is difficult to you, so is to others. Don’t kill yourself for it. After passing level I, all exam takers are smart and in the one percentile range on finance knowledge of general population. So please don’t question about your intelligence, but do spend it strategically.
- An exam prep classes installs discipline: Except the last attempt, I never paid for any prep classes. However, I did buy Schweser mock exams couple of times. In my opinion, the $1K course helped me in the following ways.
- First, it drills repetition by topics instead of a whole exam. My AM scores were always just a hair below the minimum passing average. I used to practice all 10 year AM exams once in a sequential manner. However, all becomes a blur at end, I remembers little. This year, the course forced me to practice all 10 year exams by topics, like doing all individual planning question of 10 years. And, most importantly, practice each topics 3 times. That really made a difference. Instead of evoking the analytical side of the brain, it relies on a machine like instinctive recall. Think fast, not thinking slow.
- Secondly, the course I used rank other peers by their progress. Keeping up with the paces of others makes easier than sticking to our own "perfect” plan. It is particular true during hardest months of March and April. A team environment keeps each other motivated.
- Teaching others is the best way to learn: Conceptually understanding is completely different from knowing it cold. So watch those class videos! Remember Singer Terhaar and Grinold-Kroner? Each component is simple and intuitive, but putting all the exact details together is extremely hard. And CFA loves to confuse us with substituting look alike values, such as current year yield instead of expected yield of next year. Teaching others or debating with others fluently is a sure way to fortify my brain with lasting memory.
In close, hopefully you won’t give up. Sure, you suffer from losing 60% of a year to CFA, but you save a ton from unable to do crazy random things or wondering around aimlessly. Like schools, CFA is a refuge from the real world. In my opinion, CFA is an adverse selection tool for employers. It shrinks candidate pool to a manageable size and increases likelihood to find the most ideal candidate.
Get it through and get on with your real life.